Fitting in

MNight is this weekend and it's the epoch of busyness (yes it's a correct word I googled it) and I have no idea why I'm writing this post. I was just wondering, what's the best balance between enjoying yourself and working towards the future?

There's so much to learn, so much to see and so much to do, but sometimes all I want to do is sleep. One day I want to go explore the whole world and the other I'd do anything to have a full day's rest at home. One day I'd want to go out and know more people and another I just want to shut the world out. Why am I the one confusing myself here?

On the bright side, it means I'm in charge of my life now. As long as I don't fail my year, there are tons of other stuff for me to explore and so many different paths for me to choose. No more "the best", only "what's best for you", and I guess that takes a bit of figuring out to do. It is daunting, but I've learnt to be more impulsive and do what I like with a little less thinking and doubting. After all, I think I'm in the stage of life where I can afford to make mistakes.

Remember dear Pomodoro? It doesn't work with programming. You just code and debug for 10 hours straight with multiple allocated break down sessions in between. Even though it sounds sad, this is the first thing I've found that I could do for almost 10 hours straight, apart from reading fictional books. Speaking of which, did I mention I really need to get going with my weekly Java assignment? Just a short rant today, bye :)

~Carpe diem~